Alive

In bed
Where thoughts float
Today is done
I see
My life
The things achieved
And those not
Dreams outgrown
Dreams reimagined
Dreams abandoned
Dreams mingled into the ordinariness of it all
The day-to-day
Another day tomorrow 
I pause
And focus
Sharp
Yes
I want that day
Tomorrow
I want this life
I let this knowledge enter the gray distant feeling
That hovers sometimes 
I taste gratitude
Tart, crispy gratitude
Ordinary tomorrow
Unique tomorrow
The only one of its kind
I want it
My heartbeat fills my senses
Alive
I am alive
Time waits for no man
This comforts me
Me who simply stays
At home
Who has many dreams to follow
But who chooses this dream at this time
And Time does not wait
She would not wait either way
Whichever dream I chose to chase
And Time does not frown at my choices
Because I do not
I lean into the night
Knowing the sun will rise
It always does
And Time and I
We move
Of course we do
She cannot wait
And I
I am alive
And I want to be